The Journey
I need to know that God is not a liar
I need to know somehow that I am safe
I need to know that I can go far out into the water
And feel the moon and mist upon my face
You called me here and asked me to believe you
You told me clearly that I would not die
You showed me what it is to dance with moon beams
While the archer draws his bow across the sky
For a while I forgot to be afraid, then
I rested on the surface of the deep
I let myself go softly into that cool dark night
The love you let me feel sang me to sleep
But something in my mind caused me to question
I suddenly remembered what I feared
The trust that felt so palpable around me
Melted like the fire melts the steel
All the voices that I’ve come to know so goddamn well
They clamored and they shouted “told you so”
They watched the water turn to inky blackness
And pull me to the bottom far below
I cursed the stars for shifting up above me
I spat and bled my tears upon the ground
My mouth grew thick and dry from all the worry
My ribs began to crack with my heart’s pound
You waited as I wrestled with the voices
Your silence I mistook for spite, for shame
Then Jupiter cut through the clouds, my fists she softly opened
“All is well, my love. I know your name.”
I slid off all my clothing by the water
Letting go of all I claimed to be
Every cell alive and full with wonder
Naked, I surrendered to this sea
I trust somehow that God is not a liar
I trust somehow that now I know I’m safe
I trust that I am held here in this water
All is well, my darling, in this place.